I can't bear this anymore. My whole body hurts. It even hurts me to type. I'm so sick of this. I'm tired. No one really gets it. Do I even get it? I get that I stil have a choice. To either die young, or dare to live. I don't want to die though. Dying is stupid. Nothing good comes out of death. Except from grief and questions and hell, presumably, for those who are left behind. Is presumably a word? I don't know. What do I even know? Last night I knew that I would be fine, that life has greater things coming for me. Now, I know that my body hurts. I know that I want to give up. I know that I deserve better, but it doesn't seem important. Beca